Life on mission can be challenging and very demanding at times. Pains and experiences just go together. but one thing i always realize is that whether where we are right now, wherever God is bringing us, the only thing that He wants us is to NEVER FORGET HIM. These are His words to me. Not to forget Him. To always keep on anchoring in Him. To keep on believing and trusting.

I remember the time while i was on the bus from nairobi to dar es salaam, tanzania. it is my first time to go cross country alone and in africa. my first time to endure a 17hour trip alone... on a bus.. all locals.. (except one white). i was afraid.. so afraid. and i kept on praying.. well, a lot has known what happened to me.. when i reached the kenya-tanzania border.. after exiting the kenya immigration.. a group of guys came up to me.. telling me to go into the office because that is the next stop of my bus.... so i thought that was it.. then when i went inside the office, they started asking me money. then fears of being there all alone and being a girl just jumped in my heart... so i just shouted at the men .. gathering all my strength and courage plus saying a little prayer.... i lost money in short at that office... i shouted at the men.. i ran away.. then i found my bus.... i wanted to cry but then i realize God has been guiding me and giving me the courage...
after that incident.. the bus went on... then in the middle of nowhere, the bus broke down... again, i wanted to ask God why? but then as i look at the window, i saw a glorious view of big sunflowers, wide fields.. and of course Mt. Kilimanjaro... and then i smiled and thanked God for that moment...

when i arrived in dar es salaam, i was welcomed very warmly by my hosts.... by the cfcs there... by almost everybody.. they are warm and friendly... tanzania looks like the philippines.. and i suddenly felt at home.. being there reminds me of my being a filipino.... then i realized that the whole trip was a trip arranged and designed by God for me to be with Him.. to continue on calling unto Him.. to keep on talking to Him.. he arranged everything to let me know that i can arrive safely to where He is leading me.. He allowed me to experience those things for me to know that He is there beyond all the pains that i might be experiencing... Maybe, He allowed me to experience that because i was caught up with all the work that should be done.. work that i should do in that country... everything that is work.. but then God reminded me again that I am here on mission not only to work for Him but to Not forget Him.. I am here on mission to call on Him all the time.. yes, a lot of work should be done, but a lot of praying is evermore needed. a lot of calling out to God, a lot of loving, and a lot of trusting.

pains. sadness. homesickness. all those things are just a part of the mission that i am living.. but every time we experience these things, we should just keep on looking out the window and you'll see the glorious design that God has prepared.